Dear Diary,
I want out, out of this shithole, I’ve seen the bruises on some of the patients I’ve seen the scars on their skin, they may be self-inflicted but some of them they couldn’t possibly be able to do. One of the girls in the changing had a large burn on her back which I find very interesting seeing as all heated electronics like straighteners and curlers are prohibited and the kitchen is locked and out of bounds, so how did she get it? I’m not the only one whose noticed strange things going on around here, the person across the hall from me, Jen, they’ve noticed things as well, we met in our group therapy meetings last week or maybe it was two weeks ago, time gets distorted here, you lose track of it staring at the walls all day. Anyway, Jen, we know to chat quietly, pretend to watch the tv as we whisper or pass notes to each other, the nurses do not like patients getting on, we gathered that very quickly, Jen told me about the girl in the room next to them, Uma, Jen noticed the nurses started taking her out more regularly and each time they returned her she would be more and more like a corpse.
We’ve formed a friendship, we both plan on getting out of here, preferably before things start to get worse for us, I have a very bad feeling about the next week of “therapy”, a hollow feeling in my gut mixed a heart full of dread, it felt like a block of cement in my chest, the sensation was nausea-inducing. During the one-to-one sessions this week, I refused to tell the doctor much of anything, however it seems my parents decided to inform her of various issues they have observed over the years, she proudly declared after a few sessions that she believed they had the perfect “treatment” for me, she explained I would go through a selection of therapies to help me with my apparent issues and that once they believed the treatment to be successful I could go a become a ‘functioning member of society’.
I guess the next time you hear from me i’ll either be just that, a fully functioning member of society, or of course dead by the hands of hegemonic bigots.
Psychotic Kids 